ADK Chair Design

I have officially picked up my chair for the annual LARAC ADK Chair fundraiser.  Now, I just have to actually get started painting.  Well, I suppose the real truth is that I have had the chair for like 2 weeks now, and haven't begun just yet.  I did however paint the base coat on the chair, a beautiful sky blue.  My design is shown here.  It depicts an osprey, one which I have been documenting through photos for the past summer along Lake Champlain.  Last summer she had to sets of young with two birds in each. 

What drives you to create?

After days of attempting to rid myself of this artist's block I seem to have contracted, I am yet unable to go through the motions of putting brush, or pen for that matter, to any kind of surface.  This is not to say that I do not feel inspired, because by all means I certainly do.  I cannot help but to research a new technique, delve into Google images of this or that, or make doodles in my sketchbook with the intention that they will somehow leap off of the page and become something much more than what they are.  So what on Earth is holding me back?  The usual excuses arise of course, i.e. I'm too busy, there just isn't money, I have too many other things to do.  So why does art take a back seat when it is supposed to me the most, well, second most important thing in my life?  For some reason I continue to feel this fear, this inadequacy, as though suddenly after so many years of practicing art, that I might fail at it.  The question is where did my drive go?  I have decided to determine what my drive is.  What drives me to create?

What is your drive?